Am I doomed?

I don't feel very good.

I want to hunch over into a ball and hide under the table.

I woke up feeling emotional and troubled and now I can't brush it. The feelings followed me through the night until the moment I had to force myself out of bed.

Got to keep on a mask so my daughter doesn't know. Probably one of the most exhausting things.

I felt awful this morning when I woke up late and she started crying. I went to find her upstairs and she said she felt sad but didn't want to tell me why because she didn't want me to feel bad.

You don't ever want to to hear your child say that, especially at seven years old.

She finally told me... it was because it was Easter and that I had gone out to see a friend last night and woke up late and she felt jealous.

I found a ripped up card that she had made me for Easter hiding somewhere on the sofa.

I reassured her it was okay to feel jealous and mad but I'm glad she spoke to me about it and that we will work together to try and make that better.

It was really difficult dealing with the situation considering my unstable emotional distress right now. But I did it.

I love her more than anything in the entire world.

Seven more hours until I can crumble and cry. Countdown begins.

The Bernard Bert